the worst of me

I hATE my self....

i can't stand it anymore...
why why why...
why i have to feel this way about that ... about this... y must put lot of emotion on somthing u just dont need to bother...

why argueing things that's need not to be discussed...

why afraid of somethings which still be uncertain...
why i always put my self in muzukashii situation...

why i became more and more weak each day...

I used to be stronger than this... can embrace the pain more than this...
why i become such anooying person??
what do i search for?