hamasaki ayumi sama...

"I'm looking up at the stained sky
so my tears don't well up and fall.

Why can't people live
as they wish

I don't want a weak heart that can't cry
or the strength not to cry.

I'll search for a shooting
star to cast my wishes on, but
dawn is coming too soon
and I won't be able to find one."

_hanabi_

Everybody’s calling for names

I came out of my room…
Seeing the sky…
Ah… it is black ne.. no stars, no moon… just black..
I remember…it had been full moon for 3 days.. no wonder..
I begin to walk…
The wind softly touch my cheek…a bit cold..
I begin to hug myself.. hope my body wouldn’t let its heat go..
Nevertheless … it seems useless…
I keep searching for a slightest light …
Wondering where it was hiding…
This view.. I remember you…
..
Ah.. I’m looking up to the stained sky so that none of them fall…
Those memories …
Wish I could find a shooting star to cast my wish on…
…

by ellen [masi bengong pas kelar nulis ini...] ahahahaha

this life...

Sometimes I ask myself,
how much farther will I have to go?

I hear your voice.
I hear a voice saying "don't give up"

If you're tired of denying things
and seem as if you're not yourself...


Belive in me.
I'll always be here.
The proof that you're alive
exists inside of me.

In this, this dirty city,
you're the person who
gathers up and shows me
something beautiful.

I hear your voice.
I hear a voice saying "don't give up"
Believe in me.
I'll always be standing here.

I'll always protect you,
so you never ever lose
that which you have clutched
close to your heart.

[This is a translation of 'FREE & EASY'. Translated by wataru. Credits to wataru n Divine ayu]

7 things ^^''

Okay..Tze pass me this quessionaire titled 7 things about me.. quite interesting yo~
So here you go… I proudly present you… 7 things about me! (^o^)V

7 things that scare the hell outta me
1. being left alone … I mean really left out.. T_T
2. Crocoach
3. Final Exam…
4. Scary movie
5. Looking tired..
6. Human Liquid ~whatever the form is. You’ll never know what’s inside don’t you? ~
7. Failed to finish my task

7 things/people I love most
1. My dad, my lil sis.
2. JE friends, Asianpop Friends ~hahahaha~, Campus Friends, and semua anak mantan A3 [lulusan taon 2003]di FVI
3. All stunica’s member [esp. PuB’s ^o^] ~hidup PuBlication!! ~ *THROWS CONVENTI~ hahahaha
4. My laptop
5 .My TEXTBOOKS… ~spend lotsa money on them… better love those books…~.
6. My Lab coat..
7. My purse la~

7 important stuff in my room
1. BED
2. CUPBOARD
3. Discman
4. Laptop
5. Guling
6. Blanket
7. clothes, shirts, pants, undies… ~ya u know la~~

7 random facts about me...
1. I am so easily fall into different kind of situation and trapped inside… -__-‘’’
2. But when there is an assignment to do, I pretty sure I’ll do my best to finish it.. no matter what.
3. I am the one who fall for tsubasa [but recently have an AFFAIR with Teppei !!]
4. I have a very blur pheripheral vision.. [you can’t expect me to cheat on an exam, not becoz I don’t want to, but that becoz I cant !! ]
5. I am a reckless person… ^^’’
6. I easily forget things… even names.. -.-“
7. I like to decorate things out… ^^”

7 things I plan to do before I kick the bucket..
1. I want to study abroad.. ~not longer anymore.. make me pretty scared…~
2. I want to be a damn nice succesfull person
3. I want to attend one of tsuba’s concert and WaT’s Concert Too!!!! [^o^] ~meaning; GO to JAPAN~~
4. I want to be in the backstage in one of AYUMI HAMASAKI’s Concert
4. I want to go to HAWAII ~wanted to know what Hawaii really looks like~..
5. I want to travel to all EAST ASIA countries [that would be amazing!!]
6. I want to cherish all the moment with all you guys… ^o^V


7 things that I can do
1. Analyze one’s ^^’’ um.. symptoms and sign?? ^^ hahaha…. Duh.. -.-‘’
2. Eat
3. Nyuci
4. Bikin nasi
5. Bikin aer panas
6. napas
7. tidurr…. =P

7 things I can't do
1. Memorize Jalan2 Ibukota… ~ampe bego juga g ga bakal inget… T_T~
2. Drive a car ~destinaiton nya Cuma 2… either it would be to hospital or to a damn good luxurious cemetery.
2. Grow my money Tree *kasih pupuk ke money tree… kasi air…*
3. Fix computer problem… -.-‘’ damn..
4. Make-up.. I even don’t have my own cosmetics..^^’’ always go to salon to do this kind of thing… ^^’’’
5. Wake up really early in the morning… ~You do have a problem if you want to do so.. must put lotsa effort to wake me up looh…^-^; ~
6. Not to smile or laugh in a day… ^o^V
7. Make MAIN MEAL… ^^; …

7 things I say the most
1. EeeEEEhhh???!!!
2. Hah?!
3. Um…
4. Anyway…
5. Err…
6. Larrrr
7. OMG!

7 celeb crushes
1. Teppei Koike ^o^ ~chuu~
2. Tsubasa Imai
3. Ueda Tatsuya
4. Akanishi Jin
5. Kamenashi kazuya
6. Eiji Wentz
7. Kota Yabu… La~la~la…

7 People who have to do this

1. Sato
2. Vicky
3. Dianne
4. Panda
5. Chica
6. Tia
7. Shinji (?) wakakaka… *thud*…

need to find things...

Hue...
Quote of the day...

" Do not believe anything that everybody says about someone.. until one said it by himself..."

something kowai happen... My dream sedikit demi sedikit muali jadi kenyataan... -.-'''
ano kowai yume... T_T'''

I pray to GOD that HE always give blessings and shine on you... zutto....

Only Human

Today is another amazing day..
I dreamt weird things...
Hh...
g mimpi dia sekarat, and found out cause of it in details.. T_T'' OMG..
the worst is.. i often had a deja-vu... T_T'' dont wanna this happen...
GOD... help him...

"no matter what may happen, as long as you are happy and glad, my feelings is not important to be heard... I'd be happy too"
by ellen

...

Hohoho...another poetry again.. *whack myself..*... I dont know what happen to me these days.. T_T.. When I 1st hear this song, words came to my mind.. swimming.. I need to write them down... So here it goes...


"That time you still on the beach..
We sit together and stare the same star…
Together we try to find falling stars in the middle of the cool night…
Your smile.. Your laugh …
Your reaction.. Your attitude ....
Those clearly left footprints in my heart…
Bring peace in me....
Hen desu.... It seems that all those things I have known for years...
Those seems so familiar to me..
Let go all your thoughts…
Speak it out loud… Scream!
Let those wind carry your problems…
Go to that beach once again…
Take my hand..
Together with me.. lets go!..."

By ellen
Inspired from [Izaoi no Tsuki _ W-inds]

Hoe.. Hope I'll recover soon from this POETRY MODE... T_T
Anyway, ^o^
Today i received TEPPEI KOIKE's Unofficial Photos delivered by arleen.. ^o^ URESHI!!
*HUGZ Arleen!!* ~Plus sun kiri sun kanan~
KYA~~~~...
Later I'll show u the pic ok! I haven't take a picture of it.. yet.. ^o^''
Teppei nya SENYUM SODARA2!!!! SENYUM!!! *MELTS*

Ok d..
Segitu dulu for today...
m( _ _ )m
orsukaresama deshita...

Negai...

Mood: Mellow
Song: K- only human

Hey! ^^ tze, thx for gave me such wonderful ‘blood supply’ .. I really do need that.. ^^
Arigato.. * thanx juga bwat layout na! ^^ Chu~*

Yey.. I am now watching and listening to ICHI LITRE NO NAMIDA’s cm. I’ve been play the cm for more than 20 times.. gee . T_T.. so sad..


Dear ‘u’..
I hope I didn’t hear any truth that day…
I hope that the truth *they are saying it so* are all lies…
I wish that our relationship last.. I really do..
What are you really think of?
What do you want me to do?
The rain falls… Will these raindrops deliver this feeling?
We are only human.. I realize that we cant be forever in this world..
Therefore, I want your smile to be eternal in every heart.. so shall you let the sun frame your smile, let those trees guide us, and let the moon gives you hope…
I’m 100% sure cherish every single moment that I’ve and will spend with you…
So, take my hand and let’s have some fun together yo~ =D
By ellen
~inspired from Ichi Litre no Namida’s CM.~

Ha3.. Now it is time to watch every single cd that my friend already gave me… ^^
Wait ya tze! ^o^v