the true me... real me...

It may be an illusion
And we may only want to believe
That we have got

If we don't express
Our thoughts and feelings in words
They may not be understood nor reach

In order to survive
You should not want to be healed
Without fighting

In order to survive
You should not easily
Show your tears to someone

Maybe it's all right
So long as I have desires
And am not satisfied

Maybe I have heard enough people saying
That they knew the value of something
Only after losing it

In order to survive
We cannot always be
So good girls

In order to survive
We cannot be kind to others
Before we know pain


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kono sekai ni.. ma.. mou ganbarou ganbarou yoo... mainichi-mainichi ...
yosh..

Happy Ending

There are lots of stars
As if to fill the gap between thick clouds
They are shining like a prayer
Almost like a shout
And my chest is constricted

I hope the morning will come for me soon
Before I can't hide up my weakness

It's strange I feel so lonely at night
Only because you are not here

After how many times of
Committing a sin like this

Will I be inhuman?
Will I be invisible to everyone?

I find nothing I want in a place like this
Which I escaped and tumbled into
I rip my feelings off my heart
And stick a smile on the mask
Please take me away from here
Before everything becomes a memory

I felt I knew the meaning of love a little
After I had met youIf I can finish my penance some day
If I'm forgiven some day ...

But I have no right after all that
To tell the definition of happiness


Well, I know better than anyone else
That a happy ending never suits me

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ne... i guess, i dont deserve it.. even though i want it so badly..
gomen na for all the troubles... I wonder what would happen tomorrow.. still i be able to face him like usuall? Well... I dont think so.. Me have many alter .. even I do not know when I'm not strong enough be able to surpress the other alter of mine.. haa...
this life... what should I do now?

Maple

The dark cloud places a piece of shadow in our hearts
I listen respectfully to my mood, which has already been quiet for a long time
Clear and transparent
Just like the beautiful scenery
It’s always only clear when seeing it in my memory

Can the heart, that has been thoroughly hurt, still continue to love me?
I make an effort to pull up the pair of hands that have no warmth
The tenderness in the past has already been locked by time
Only leaving sadness that doesn’t go away
The maple leaves slowly falling down are like thoughts
I light a candle to warm up the end of autumn
The aurora plunders the edge of the sky
The south wind brushes past, thinking of your appearance
I take love and burn it into fallen leaves
Yet I can’t get back that familiar face

The maple leaves slowly falling down are like thoughts
Why must retrieving be hurried before autumn comes?
Loving you passing through time
Two rows of tears from the end of autumn
Let love permeate through the ground
All I want is you to be by my side

The graceful red rain in between the mountainside
Withering with the north wind
I lightly swing the wind chimes
I want
To awaken the love that has been deserted
Snowflakes are already spread all over the ground
Deeply scared that the maple leaves outside the window have already become frozen

_taken from November Chopin album_

What a day

Haha... TZE!! ^o^ MISS YOUU!!! *muach*
adudududu....
kept thinking when will we meet... ARgh... Benar,, seperti orang pacaran aja.. Hahahaha

really miss Beijing, Shanghai, Shenzhen, HK, especially Mongkok... *cries*
I really love BIG CITIES!! ^^'' haha... gak kepikiran gimana klo g tinggal di desa... T_T... jauh dari semua sarana menuju 'my entertaiment' Argh.. T_T
Teppei... teppei...
Next i will post some of my pics in China... *I hope i can yoo~...*